I REALLY struggle with that whole being nice to myself bit. It feels so indulgent, and selfish, and greedy, and truthfully it is so easy to be less than nice. But after Rob's incident last Friday which freaked me out considerably, and the understanding that life really is short I decided to take a side trip down the path of self-love and see if I couldn't just get lost there. And it didn't hurt that I still had a gift card in my wallet from Christmas.
After seven chapters and seven months on The Artist's Way path I see that a main component of this process is learning, remembering, striving to love ourselves. Even when times are tough, even when we make mistakes, even when success doesn't come with a quick and easy flow. In chapter seven one simple way to show ourselves love is by giving ourselves something comforting. Socks, mittens, a hat. Something cozy and sweet and that will bring us basic comfort.
No I don't really need them. No I shouldn't be spending extra money right now. And no, it is not spring yet so I can't even wear them outside until the slush piles are gone. But you know what, they were the one item in the whole entire store that leaped off the shelf and said Amanda, You deserve something nice, and I'm it.
For one morning I let those negative voices go and relished the fact that I am good. Shit, I am better than good. I am a beautiful and prolific writer. And these swanky and comfortable Merrell shoes are here to remind me of that.